Chapter One:

Ryan's POV

"Maybe if I close my eyes and count to three."
One.
Two.
Three.

I manage to open my eyes to a mere squint.

"Ahhh God, it's still there..." I grimace. Spencer glances down the hallway at my ex-girlfriend of three days, Natasha, making her way towards us. He shakes his head and hides a smile.

"You're an ass Ross." He remarks casually.

"Well it's revolting... I mean honestly." She purses her lips and glares at me as she walks by with her Brainless Band of Bitches, leaving nothing but tension and the sent of her perfume behind.

"I think she heard you..." Spencer smirks and I laugh.

"That was kind of the point, keep up, Smith." Natasha had cheated on me but had failed to break my heart. Things had never really clicked with us to begin with. It was more of a "I like to sleep around with you when we're (or at least I am) drunk" kind of relationship. No gain or loss, no regrets or accomplishments.

The two of us continue to walk towards the school library with nothing specific and everything random to talk about. Once we arrive we plop down at the farthest table from the door. This was the only way we could actually get work done. I always hate staying after school, but with final exams around the corner, I don't have much of a choice. I like to call this time of the year Last Minute Bull Shitting, but maybe that's just me. I mean, take for example, Spencer, he actually gets good grades, he's on the Student Counsel,the Key Club, National Honors Society, and the only reason he's coming to these BS Sessions is because he's determined to get straight A's. I just want to pass.


As a result, he has already cracked open his book and I'm looking around the library. My eye catches something interesting.

"Hey," I smack Spencer's arm and pull him out of an Algebraic Trance, "Who's that kid?" He sighs and glances over to where my gaze was directed.

"Brendon Urie. He got here during second semester, why do you care?" Spencer whines. I can tell his nerd senses are tingling and he now feels the urge to bury himself back inside of the book.

"Why don't I know who he is. Is he in our grade?" Spencer rolls his eyes and nods.

"You don't know him because he's in honors classes..." Spencer explained. I stick my tongue out at him and look back at Brendon. He was sitting alone at a table, reading and scribbling notes onto a piece of paper. I can't believe I don't know this kid. I mean, the only reason Natasha and I lasted as long as we did was because we are probably the biggest gossipers in our grade, if not our school. I thought I knew all the Juniors and vast majority of the rest of the school's population, but now this Urie kid proves me wrong.

"Well I think I may have to go say hello..." I say as I begin to stand up. Spencer tugs on my sleeve.

"Common man, he's trying to study. Plus he's REALLY shy, I don't think anyone really talks to him." He tugs harder as if he's insisting I just sit my sweet ass back down but I only smirk.

"All the more reason I should go talk to him."

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Chapter Two

Brendon's POV

I jot down something down onto my piece of paper and sigh. My mind isn't really on this work, but then it's not really on anything else either except for maybe this damn hand cramp. I close my eyes for a moment but someone clearing their throat shakes me from my thoughts, if I had any going through my head to start with that is...

"Can I help you?" I ask as I look up at the boy standing eagerly next to me. I know who he is. Ryan Ross. I don't think there's anyone at this school who doesn't know him. He's notorious for being a gossip, loud, untrustworthy and, well, good in bed. I bush at this final thought but I don't break my gaze. What does he want with me?

"Hello Brendon!" He says as if we'd been friends for years as he pulls out a seat for himself and sits next to me. I shift uncomfortably and take another look at him. I had to admit, there's a reason why girls (and some guys) swoon over him. His hair is swept up into a small faux-hawk but with his bangs covering his right eye slightly. He has an intoxicating smile with heart-melting brown eyes, framed perfectly with a light amount of smeared eyeliner. "What are you up to?" He asks sweetly and I can't help but wonder what he's up to. I glance over at the only other occupied table and see Spencer Smith watching and rolling his eyes before looking back at his books.

"I'm uhh just studying..." I mutter as a blush creeps up my cheeks. Ever since I had finally admitted to myself that I was definitely and utterly gay, I had hardly been able to keep any eye contact with a guy. Doesn't help that I wasn't the most outgoing to begin with and this is a new school.

"That's fun..." Ryan mutters but closes my book with a light-hearted laugh. "So Brendon... do you know who I am? Because to be honest I had to ask Spencer who you were." I scratch the back of my head and consider lying, but then he might just think I'm stupid.

"You're umm, Ryan right?" He nods with a big smile displayed across his almost childish face.

"Yeah! Anywho, you look very lonely, so what do you say we get Spencer to move his ass and the three of us could go hang out. it is Friday after all, why should we stay in a library all afternoon." He cocks his head and gives me a mock questioning look as if to prove his point. I can't help but laugh as I nod in some form of agreement. He stands up and snaps his fingers.

"Come Spencer!" He calls out. Spencer looks up and snorts.

"You wish you were that cool, Ross." He laughs as he packs up his things anyways. I eye Ryan as I wonder if there was a selfish intent behind this or if I was just paranoid. Whatever the case, as long as I don't let my guard down I should be safe.

quote:

Originally posted by BottomOfTheFoodChain:
"You wish you were that cool, Ross."

Hahaha! Favorite line from this chapter! Spencer rocks ;D

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Chapter Three:

Brendon's POV

I follow the two of them out into the parking lot. Across the street are some small restaurants and Ryan and Spencer are arguing over which one of the two small pizza joints in that area are the best.

"Common Ry, you know Dave's Pizza is awesome." Spencer says.

"I SAID LITTLE ITALY PIZZA CAFE!" Ryan screams with a whine in his voice.

"Hey, if you're going to speak to me we're not getting pizza Ryan." I smile slightly at how motherly Spencer sounds as he places his hands on his hips and looks down at Ryan as the older boy gets down on his knees and looks up at Spencer with sweet eyes.

"Pweety Pwease Spee?" Ryan begs and I smirk slightly.

"Hey Bren, which sounds better to you?" Spencer says after an exasperated sigh. I shrug.

"I've never been to either one." Ryan hops up and takes my hand.

"Oh really? Well then, there is this darling little place called Little Italy Pizza Cafe!" He tugs me away and calls back to Spencer, "Come on Spencey, you mustn't be rude!" Ryan insists and Spencer shakes his head.

"Fine Princess Ryan," He laughs, "And of course you'd like the place with the gayest name."

My heart stings when he says that. I know out in the city, people use "gay" as more of a slang term, but when the word is used as a negative like that... it just brings back a lot of painful memories.

"Whatever Spencer!" Ryan laughs as he drops my hand. I shove it back in my pocket. A part of me feels wrong letting another guy touch me, even if it was as innocent as that. At least when I know I'm attracted to that guy. I bite my lip and try my best not to think of Joshua. That's the whole reason my parents moved me out here. So it wouldn't hurt anymore. So I wouldn't be such a mess anymore.

I keep my eyes down as Ryan and Spencer have a heated argument about what a certain cloud looks like.

"Dude, it's not a penis..." Spencer sighs with a shake of his head, "I see a fish man..." Ryan smirks.

"No look, there's the shaft-"

"I think you're only seeing cocks everywhere because your mind is trying to convince you to take the leap from bi to gay." Spencer remarked. Ryan shrugged and glanced back at me.

"Doing ok Brenny Bear?" I cock my eyebrow at the nickname but speed up a bit.

"Yeah, I'm great." Ryan smiled and linked arms with me and I can't help but shutter because the face of my former flame keeps popping up in my mind. I feel like I'm betraying him and I'm not even doing anything wrong.

We finally arrive at the pizza place and we order a large pizza and sit down.

"So Brendon, where are you from?" Ryan asks curiously. I smile slightly.

"I'm from this small town in Michigan..." I say softly as I hope they don't press the subject too much.

"Oh that's cool..." Spencer remarks.

"Hey I remember hearing about this kid there," Ryan comments and I look up, hoping he isn't going to say what I think he is, "Yeah he was like gay or something and these kids beat him up pretty bad," My hearts pounding and I can feel my face flush as I look down, "He died later on in the hospital." I bite my lip and blink back tears.
Everything feels wrong and my heart, I swear, has slowed down. His face is so clear in my mind. His jacket around my body, his lips against mine. This goes unnoticed though.

"Yeah wasn't the kid Joshua something?" Spencer asked. At the mention of his name I can't control myself and let out a sudden sob. I try to stand to leave as uncontrollable tears stream down my face. The two of them stand up and come to either side of me.

"Brendon?" Ryan coos. I shove him away and shakily make my way towards the door. I'm crying to hard and end up feeling dizzy and out of breath. I collapse right before I reach the door and I suddenly feel everyone in the resturant staring at me. Ryan pulls me into his arms and I hide my head against his chest.

"Shhh, it's ok," He tells me in a soothing voice as he strokes my hair. I feel Spencer's hand against my back as he crouches down behind me. I can tell they're exchanging confused glances. They don't understand that it's not ok. Nothing has been ok since the night I spent by the side of his bed, watching my childhood sweetheart writhe in pain as he slowly left me.

"They took him from me... he was mine." I finally blurt out before sobbing harder.

"Oh God..." Spencer says as he realizes what I'm saying. I think Ryan caught on too, because he hugs me tighter.

"Oh sweetie...." He whispers. I shake my head.

"Why didn't they just kill me instead?"

GAH BRENDON Y_Y

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Homophobic jerks can back the fuck off.

Ryan to the rescue!

quote:

Originally posted by BottomOfTheFoodChain:
Nothing has been ok since the night I spent by the side of his bed, watching my childhood sweetheart writhe in pain as he slowly left me.

"They took him from me... he was mine." I finally blurt out before sobbing harder.

"Oh God..." Spencer says as he realizes what I'm saying. I think Ryan caught on too, because he hugs me tighter.

"Oh sweetie...." He whispers. I shake my head.

"Why didn't they just kill me instead?"

That bit made me cry! it was soo sweet though
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