that's amazing

You seem to not care that I'm slowing inching away, It's like you don't care at all..I'm not even here"
I'm looking in your eyes and i'm only seeing my reflection the love once there, doesn't even show anymore
In one ear and out the other
Listen to the silence as
we exchange deadly looks to each other
it's ending now, ending fast now....it's gone

Just tell me i'm not wasting my time...please
I'm stretching myself as thin as humanly possibly
it's ending now, ending fast now..it's gone

This silence is so loud...so loud it's defening
You couldn't even hear the crys for help
Maybe it's just your self centerness
but...I doubt it.--You're just lifeless when you're mad
It's ending now..ending fast now..it's gone


Just tell me i'm not wasting my time...please
it's ending now, ending fast now...it's gone

Is my clock slow or is it just you
I've waited for you to speak but no words have uddered from your lips
so i assume your done or just don't have the time.
but then again your lifeless when your mad
I've waited so long and my voice hurts from holding back the tears
It'd ending now..ending fast now it's gone.

why won't you speak or let me off the hook
kill the silence stop the looks just speak!
my voice is raw from screaming
but no words have come out
my mind is sore from wondering
just tell me i'm not wasting my time...please
it's ending now ending fast now it's gone.

my hands keep trembling as you make me wait
i know my clock's not slow so i'll give you a few more min
if this was important you would speak ..right?
right?!?!
my throat is so raw from the tears so raw from the screaming
no words have been spoken.
speak...don't let it die........speak..
it's ending now...ending fast now..it's gone.

why'd you let it die...you only had to speak
one word one syllable just why'd you let it die
getting words out of you is like pulling teeth
you're so lifeless when you're mad.
so lifeless...so lifeless.

Pressed between two pieces of plastic,
Hypnotized into think this drastic was a fantastic.
Mesmerized into feeling enthusiastic,
No longer knowing to be straight forward- or sarcastic.
Are you still the paper or are you now the plastic?
This drastic makes you feel so confused.

Unknowing that you'll be left alone all bruised-
Feeling used;
Your dignity abused.
For at the end, you finally see the truth.
Finally understanding how you were misused,
And all your emotions have been diffused.

You were altered into something polished,
Old self abolished,
Former personality- demolished.
If you think covering me up with something shiny will change me,
Then you're crazy.
But somehow, you were able to amaze me.

You transformed me into something different.
It was no accident.
What I thought was chemistry had gotten me distracted.

Just face the facts and think about it.
'Love' today is just overrated.
Affections see to have people contaminated.
It makes you want to be afraid of it,
Because this sickness will never be outdated.
Soon enough you'll be...

Laminated.

You guys are amazing!!!

{You were altered into something polished,
Old self abolished,
Former personality- demolished.
If you think covering me up with something shiny will change me,
Then you're crazy.
But somehow, you were able to amaze me.}

that'd be a really good song.

When my ears ring I wonder what I need.
Another closer. Give me your armor. Cause I can’t sleep.
I know that sounds desperate.
But this summer heat is getting through to me.
Unlike nothing else I’ve ever seen.
This summer breeze is getting to me.

I can’t miss you anymore can you hear me.
I know your voice is just longing to say theses things.
Baby I need you to hear me.
My ears they are. They are ruining you voice..


This is an emergency but I’m not panicking that much.
Cause there’s a time and a place for everything.
To bad I though your party was the setting.
I’ve made another mistake. Made another funny face.
For your pictures. The flash is getting through to me.
I live like I’m posing for a photograph.
It’s a shame that’s I’ll never be as dispensable as you.

Baby I need you to hate me.
So I can live to die alone.
I can’t miss you anymore can you hear me.
I know your voice is just longing to say theses things.
Baby I need you to hear me.
My ears they are. They are ruining you voice...

BUMP.

We've got a lot of talented people in here.
I'm keeping this alive, son!

Will you be mine?
Oh I surrender all my sleepless nights that you know I held so close to me.
Just to be with you. . .just to finally have a reason.
Just to be with you. . ..what to I have to do?

And right about now. I’m going crazy and sounding desperate.
Ready to give you any amount of effort.
All just to hear you say. Just to see your earth colored eyes swirl into my direction.
I mean I’ll do anything. Besides give you my hand.
Cause I know. . .I still have to write all these songs.

Will you be mine?
Oh I swear I’ll give you all my useless time. Cause I know you’d make it something.
You make everything so perfect. . .
Just to be with you! No these words of lust and longing seem to be so fake.
And I hope this does not drive you away. Hope I’m not making a huge mistake.

You look beautiful on stage.
But why are you now using your real life as an escape.
You’re not that nice to look at anymore.
Don’t you have somewhere else to go?

Flash and dash.
I guess it’s better then to take us down with you.
But at least we’d be with you till the end.
The light has got you struck and you take it all in. All in. Like you’ll never get enough.
And you’re blinded. So you run into the arms of anyone.
Of anyone that isn’t us.

Oh you you make me laugh in all the obvious ways and reasons.
You’re such a killer in this department of words and last kisses.
Will you please tell me what to do? To fix this little so called “truce”
But their will never be a end to this. Cause what’s lovely for me will never be okay with the rest of the world.
Ha like I care. . .But it still kinda hurts.


Why is this the only phrase I can always count on you to say.
Even when I’m crying. Hysterically and I saw exactly what everybody said you did.
I can’t get enough of the way your lies sound.
You acted like this heart of mine that I’ve busted, Was yours to begin with.
This heart I got from someone else.
Who handed me down to you.

Oh you make me smile. For all the clearest ways and reasons.
You’re such a heartbreaker in this department of hugs and cover ups.
Will you please tell me what to do? To fix how fucked up I feel about your “truth”.
Will you please tell me what to do? To fix this little so called “truce”
But their will never be a end to this. Cause what’s lovely for me will never be okay with the rest of the world.
Ha like I care. . .But it still kinda hurts.

Guess who inspired me...
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Dancing in the Dark

Tear off my glamorous skin,
And look at me for who I really am.
For who I want to be.
Look at my real beauty.

Why do you hate me so?
When I do it all for you.
When all I live for is to please you.
Look at who you’re killing inside.

I’ll hold my head high,
To disguise my rotting heart.
To conceal my crusty tears.
Look at what you’re doing to me.

I’ll stand before you today,
Because he’s here to hold me in the night
Hold my head high and I’ll be okay
Look at who I’m hiding from you.

I’ll see you tomorrow
And I’ll be different from who you see
The girl you see standing before you.
Look at who you’re tearing down.

I’ll fade away soon enough,
Like the fake color of your hair.
Your wish will come true.
Look at who you’re forcing me to be.

Tear me down,
I’ll rebuild myself again.
Our games of cat and mouse.
Look at God’s reality.

You don’t phase me.

Dream Forever

We’ll play outside today.
Do cartwheels and pirouettes.
We’ll run through the sprinklers.
Come along and move with me.

We’ll paint the sky green today.
Color rainbow clouds and purple grass.
We’ll draw each other and color our faces blue.
Come with me and we’ll move together.

We’ll sit by the fire and read today.
Flood our minds with vivid pictures.
We’ll read pages of books together.
Follow me and move along.

We’ll knit fuzzy scarves today.
Have yarn ball fights and fence with knitting needles.
We’ll embroider our names into our creations.
Come hither and we will move.

We’ll make pretty songs today.
Sing along to the piano tune.
We’ll hum a melody and burst out into song.
Come now and move slowly.

We’ll lay down in eternal sleep today.
Next to each other we’ll lay.
We’ll float away dreaming of our lives yesterday.
Come, follow me and we’ll move together forever.

You are all very talented and greatly appreciated.
Continue to post what ever you please.

Bump- we were about to be locked..again.

For you I live
We just don’t know it yet.
Give me some time to find the reason for it.
Cause I just don’t know why yet.
Oh you do?
Oh you do?

But would it change a thing?
No. No.
Things have remained the same the same.

Do you remember when we turned out skin to the outside.
And we denied the sun our smiles.
When our eyes yawned.
These dog years spent way too easy lying.

Misted hair. The rain I guess surprised you.
Mister is misery you’re only sidekick.
And you’re green eyes are dimming. Haven’t been sleeping.
Missing sleep like it’s some kind of drug.
Energy drawn from power pop songs.

Even if you slept a wink.
Would it change us?
No. No.
You’d never change for me.

A pretty girl who lived off of folk tales.
She lied and said she kissed a frog.
And complained about how all she got was discovered.
Like that’s not enough.
If that wasn’t enough to sacrifice her lips she ruined her dress.
Left her friends for a Vegas wedding out west.
Said vows to manifest fair fears in us.

A clever boy. Long legs and long fingers.
Said he sold his soul for fame at fourteen.
Forgot about loopholes.
Said he could fiddle a song cause the devil licked his fingertips.
Well now all her can do is fiddle with his hair when his worried.
And without talent how is he suppose to impress her parents.